Work starts tomorrow already??

I have a fun post coming up of a shady looking side street, hole in the wall, downstairs, hippy/Hawaiian curry buffet that I ventured into the other day. But for now, I desperately need to find a place to live. I can't go into much detail but I need to move. No matter what I do, I am causing my grandma more stress (mostly because she is 91 and doesn't really understand) than joy because I am "home" ( in Japan) but not able to be home with her.I've been looking, visiting, talking to agencies, and the hunt will continue tomorrow after work.

I wish I could say its such a fun adventure, but every day is exhausting. Besides the normal stress of moving to another country outside of a program/study abroad and figuring things out like job, phone, Internet, bank accounts, credit card, transportation, apartment hunting, and generally acceptable customs and behavior, I need lots of prayer for strength and patience at home. I honestly have barely thought about my job starting tomorrow because it is so small on the list of stressful circumstances. On the bright side, I found dress pants that fit (I've been on the hunt for a year with no success!), comfortable black high heel work shoes (the standard in Japan), several work appropriate shirts, and a 100 yen pig coffee mug for work.

It's not all bad and depressing! I feel at rest at church and people have been very kind. I also have experienced the Holy Spirit as Comforter more than before because I'm very uncomfortable. It may sound supernatural and weird to those who don't believe the same thing, but I am constantly praying and can sense being led by the Spirit. It is a good place to be at the end of myself, and seeking God as my refuge.

"Nevertheless I am continually with you; you hold my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will receive me to glory. Whom have I in heaven but you? And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." Psalm 73:23-26

Today's sermon was on Micah 6:8 "He has told you, O man, what is good; and what does the Lord require of you but to do justice, to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God?" That includes caring for widows and orphans, loving those who are hard to love and expecting nothing in return, and the humility regarding others more important, which Christ showed by coming in the form of a man, away from comfort and glory. It was the perfect timing to hear that. In comparison with what God has done for me and given to me, what he requires is nothing.

Doctor's verdict: stomach flu

I got some anti-nausea pills. I'm done with my saltine crackers and okayu (rice porridge) diet, moving on to yogurt, jello, afghani flatbread, double fiber english muffins and nutella... I know this is a shameful diet for a self-proclaimed foodie.

Some symptoms persist but I can finally type, write, read without feeling too sick so I'm making progress on emails, applications, packing list and finishing up things to do before I leave. I narrowed down my grad school applications to 5 in the country, 2 out of the country! (7 still sounds like a lot but it's a huge improvement) I tend to get overzealous and burn out so I still have to remember to take it easy since I'm not really better yet.

I thought of saying praise the Lord for healing, but praise Him either way! I'm very grateful for slowly getting better though :)

Bump in the road

I've been sick since Monday night. It seems like this fever/headache/nausea/etc (I'll leave it at that for the squeamish) is spreading around a lot of people I know. It's definitely not what I had expected since I was just writing about "oh man, I have so much to do in 10 days." I wish I could have spent time with friends or doing applications instead of sleeping and eating crackers for 3 days. This is taking things even more out of my hands than before. "Be still and know that I am God" came to mind but when I looked up the rest of the verse, it makes more sense.

"Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!" Psalm 46:10

THAT is what's important. But He is so kind, and continues: "The Lord of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress." He is by our side, and that is our comfort and peace.

Only 10 more days!

I've gotten several requests to keep a blog about my trip to Japan, so here it is! I'll continue to update while I'm there so you can subscribe by email (see "follow" on the right) to know when I've written. It's hard to believe I only have 10 days left until departure.

My excessive planning and perfectionist tendencies are being tested...a reminder that I'm not in control (praise the Lord I'm not). Grad school applications, papers, fees, packing, meeting with people, job hunting, citizenship/visa/residency details, living situation in Japan can feel overwhelming. It's my responsibility to be diligent in what I have to do, but I trust that:

  1. God will accomplish what he plans for me:
  • The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps. Proverbs 16:9
  • But I trust in you, O Lord; I say, "You are my God." My times are in your hand. Psalm 31:14-15
  • Nevertheless, I am continually with you; you hold my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will receive me to glory. Whom have I in heaven but you? And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. Psalm 73:23-26
  1.  He will give me the grace for every situation that comes up:
  • But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, my power is made perfect in weakness." 2 Corinthians 12:9
  • You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you. Isaiah 26:3